Know you are the type of woman who is searching for a place to call yours. Let the statues crumble. You have always been the place. You are a woman who can build it yourself. You were born to build.” – Sarah Kay

I recently read this excerpt from The Type written by Sarah Kay and her words resonated with me in a way that seems so relevant at the moment. As I sit here reflecting how I got to this point−mind and body−I am a believer (for the first time) that results start from within.

My Story:

Somewhere over the span of the last 5 years up until I joined Endorphin in October of 2013, I let go of me and put my relationships and career first. I wasn’t happy, though I didn’t know it. I thought I was in shape, kind of, but I really wasn’t.  This culminated with foot surgery in August 2013, where for four weeks post-surgery I laid on the couch with my foot up watching TV. Ironically, it was during these four weeks of inactivity that I gained the motivation to get off my ass and discovered the strength to begin the journey of rediscovering the endless capabilities of my mind and body. This, coupled with a divorce and a job loss simultaneously, I figured I had two choices. To give up or change my life for the better. Endorphin is huge reason why I am not on the couch eating Twinkies and chose to change my life for the better.

For the most part, I’ve always been active. I was a basketball and a track athlete into as an adult participating in triathlons of all distances up to a half ironman, and fulfilling my adventurous side with mountaineering climbs (Mt. Hood, Grand Teton. Mt. Saint Helens, etc.), snowboarding and mountain biking. Even so, I have never felt like I was all around healthy, that is until now. At age 38, I am literally in the best shape of my life. Just last weekend, I went from ‘participating’ in races to actually ‘racing’ in races and finished the best I have ever finished (since high school) at Spartan. 1st in my age group and 3rd female finisher overall. Whoot! My results are no doubt due to Endorphin.

My Endo Experience:

It was 8 weeks post foot surgery in August 2013 and there was twenty pounds more of me at the time, when I decided to dive into personal training with Chris Lindley. This experience opened my eyes to the fact that I’ve been missing some pieces to the health and fitness puzzle, (really my entire life), and the pieces missing were nutrition, guidance and a supportive community.

I remember my first training session with Chris. I walked in knowing it was going to be tough but I’ve always been the type of person who could overcome tough. I just needed to retrain my mind and muscles to know how to overcome physical fatigue. However, what was new to me is the fact that in order to achieve the results we set forth in our first session, 70% of my focus would need to be on how I fuel my body in everyday life.

With the guidance of the Chris and the Endo community, in just 8 short weeks, I went from the couch, recovering from foot surgery, to surpassing my initial goals and surviving my first of what would be countless Hellth classes (seriously my favorite, next to MPIT). Once you set your mind free of expectations and limitations, there is no doubt the results will follow. It is kind of crazy. The mind and body shift that I’ve experienced in just a short amount of time. While crazy, it feels so incredible. I feel like me again. I see glimpses of who I have yet to become. And, it is so amazing. I am so psyched to have reached my goals and to be in the position to continuously set new ones. Sure, it has come with a ton of sweat, food sacrifices (that I no longer think of as sacrifices) and I think even a few tears. All so worth it. Since joining Endo, I have lost 20 pounds and a total of 21 inches. I actually did so in my first four months as a member and have kept it off. But for me the numbers take a back seat to how I feel.  For the first, time since age 18, I truly think of myself as an athlete and it feels ah-maze.

There is no doubt Endorphin’s place in this all for me. I keep waiting for the motivation to disappear and it doesn’t. It doesn’t because of the badass instructors, badass classes and badass community that IS Endorphin and I am so incredibly thankful for it. Specifically, I owe a ton to instructors Chris Lindley, Merritt, Briana, Nick, Paige, Anna, Julieta, and Jeff. Val and Sarah too…you guys all rock. And thanks Elaine for all you do behind the scenes. I could go on and on. Yeah, results start from within but it is all of you that have helped me realize my potential, well you and Brittany Spears at 5am Hellth. Can’t forget her!

So the next time you are asked, “Why aren’t you drinking, having dessert or eating French Fries?” Remember that you are in the game of health and fitness for you, for your life and nobody else’s. But of course balance is key to success so I am always up for that beer and maybe a french fry at Friday’s Stink n’ Drink.

And, most importantly, in the end, remember as Sarah Kay so eloquently expressed, you are born to build and it is up to you to build it.

Thanks Endorphin. I have mad love for you.